corinne

so remember corinne from the second summer in boston? well she called me tonight. we talked for about 45 minutes. we always had the best conversations....i miss her

she said whenever i plan on coming to boston again just to give her a call...that i have a place to stay. how nice :)

made my night.

quotes

i love my past. i love my present. i'm not ashamed of what i've had, and i'm not sad because i have it no longer.

--colette

amazing how so few words can organize such a whirlwind of thoughts...

moving on

i feel as though the new phase has begun...

meeting new people
filled a new job
putting the past in place

first..i have been meeting new interests over the past two weeks or so. i've gotten very good at figuring out if there is a possibility for anything long-term. i am perfectly happy with my life in a single state. i'm just having a lot of fun.

plus the new job is taking up enough of my energy. the job announcement was friday and i officially filled the position yesterday. i have heard a couple of things being said behind my back, but overall i feel more supported than i thought i would. staff are coming to me with ideas and issues. the other assistant and i compliment each other well. his strenghts are my weaker areas and vice versa. my life is taking on a whole different perspective...i see things through a different lens.

its focused on the future. not to worry about what i have done in the past or who from my past does not need to be in my future. i understand where i came from and why i no longer choose to be in that place. i understand that i am a result of all those things that have happened to me in my life and i am focusing on being thankful. no matter if those things were positive or negative they have affected me in positive ways because i am a strong/driven person.

everything in my life just feels right. leaving you with this quote:

"Love ... we think about it, sing about it, dream about it, and lose sleep worrying about it. When we don't have it, we search for it; when we discover it, we don't know what to do with it; when we have it, we fear losing it. It is the constant source of pleasure and pain, yet we can't predict which it will be from one moment to the next. It is a short word, easy to spell, difficult to define, impossible to live without."
---thanks ryan

the end...just another beginning

it has been a long time and that is mostly because my computer has fizzled. okay, in actuality it is because i have been very irritable with the things that i need to journal about. so...i have done exactly what i shouldn't have and repressed those thoughts. well here they come...just a warning.

first ending/beginning: so frustrated with the relationship that i was in but wasn't in. i got tired of waiting for a phone call, not getting what i needed in the relationship, and dealing with the lack of committment. enough about that. it is over. we don't talk anymore, and i think it is best that way for a while. i have gotten myself to a place where i will be ready for anyone who comes along...

second ending/beginning: i got a big promotion at work. the job--a supervisor over half of the day program. i had two interviews...the second one was with three people in management. my boss said that after i left the interview the executive director said that he would be an idiot if he didn't hire me into the position. while i am very excited, i am also very wary of the promotion. i know that i am going to catch a lot of flack from my coworkers. several of them have worked for the company for 10 years, are much older than me, and did not get the job. here comes this little 23 year old who has been at the company for one year (exactly to the date...weird) and she steals the position. my qualifications for the job will be apparent soon after i enter into the positoin. i am nervous though...

just found out that hulon is moving on sunday. he is gone to knoxville for a few months. this saddens me to the point of tears. beyond that point really....

as one of my clients puts it "i'll live"

at this point i'm seeing the ends and beginnings intertwinned into one. one end passes the beginning which is itself an end. life is moving and i am simply trying to keep up.