finally back online. i have been doing a lot of journaling in my written journal that i wish i could transfer onto here w/out it taking forever. oh well. maybe one day i'll transfer some of the better entries.

ethan and i are going clubbing tonight. we finally feel all moved in a ready to get out and meet some people. it is a beautiful day, so i'm gonna go biking and lay out in the sun at some random park for a bit. that is something i've been doing everyday--biking. i ride from the apartment to lexington...through arlington and cambridge.it's a long ride...about 20 miles i think.

i talked with my boss last night. she is worried that if i start work at MIT next week then i will not be done there when she needs me to start. she says that she can definately find things for me to do w/elena if need be. so, i'm coming over either tomorrow night or saturday night to hang out with elena while her parents go out.

ethan has a job as a delivery boy. sounds like the tips are good.

linda called me yesterday. we talked about a half hour or so. she is doing good, but very busy. i basically left the ball in her court as to when we actually will see each other. i can't believe--i've been here three weeks and i still haven't seen her....

I'm going over to olympia sports today to see about working there part-time after the elena-job starts. i figure its the best option for me b/c i plan on buying lots of sports equiptment with my profit this summer. why not get a discount?

i want to plan a trip to new york sometime soon. maybe the first weekend in june....my sister says that my dad's new york office treats you like royalty. that would be nice!

my postings should become better soon, as they are coming to install our phone line and cable tomorrow afternoon. i will be able to use a dial-up service to journal online instead of in my written journal.

big news! ethan and i bought a ferret yesterday. we named her soho, after zoolander's "he's SO HOt right now."

i am meeting with my boss this weekend to figure out scheduling to start my job with elena. how exciting...

otherwise, the new apartment is great. i'm loving my room and the area. well ethan is meandering aimlessly, so i'm gonna make this short.

i'm ready to be back in boston. sewanee is nice, but the southern heat is too much to handle. ethan and i are catching a ride to the nashville airport with my matron. we're gonna stay there tonight and wake up super-early to catch a flight on standby.

don't really want to get on my flight back to sewanee.

we had a nice long day in the city of boston today. took sandwiches in ziplock baggies with us. it was nice. a very cheap day filled with sun, job applications, and coffee. we met up with jessica, valori's daughter, around 4.30. she is VERY cute. i immediately started crushing on her. i emailed her mom to tell her thanks for introducing us. too bad she moves to atlanta in a week. maybe we'll hang out again before she goes.

i think its great that i haven't seen linda. i'm trying so hard not to sweat her.

i feel so much older than i am. we told steph and david that we'd have them over to our place for dinner once we get settled in. how odd. dinner gatherings? that's not supposed to happen at age 21.

flying back to sewanee for graduation tomorrow. excited about it, but i'd rather be in boston....

so, ethan and i went grocery shopping together. i'm sure that we look like a married couple. its scary.

talked to linda today for some time. we won't see each other till i get back to boston after sewanee's graduation.

we had dinner on beacon hill at my friend's place. it was fabulous food. and great conversation. david said that he's going to tell his old boss that we are looking for jobs and hook us up. we'd be working right at the bottom of beacon hill. nice eh?

well i think that ethan is bored. maybe we will go play chutes and ladders again. elena (my student) has so many toys. that's all there is to do in this house. until tomorrow...

first of all--boston kicks ass.

ethan and i already secured an apartment in somerville (really close to the city). its very nice--hardwood floors, new bathroom, new kitchen, one parking spot. we move in tuesday. until then, we're staying with the family i work for. they left this morning for bermuda and won't be back until monday.

i got an email today from valori sherer. she is a school of theology student at sewanee. she found out that i am in boston for the summer and wants me to meet her daughter who goes to BU. she said her daughter is super-involved in BU's GSA. i emailed her daughter, jessica, and she called me this afternoon. we are planning to meet up tomorrow afternoon. woohoo! the mom hooked her daughter up. we'll see how it goes.

well, ethan and i are off to beacon hill to have dinner with a girl i work with and her bf who happened to be one of my roommates last summer.

finished with my junior year of college, and i've made significant headway into packing up my stuff. i have to do the clothes and stuff tomorrow. shouldn't be too too much packing on my last day here.

i think i'm gonna run jump in the shower before dinner. i'm so excited about getting to boston. i am so ready to get the hell out of here.

8 hours!!! i'm off the mcclurg to study.

ok...i think this journal is my #1 procrastination tool. anyhow, several things have been on my mind in the past few hours.

i was reading through my notebooks tonight, and i saw that on many pages i doodled linda's name. weird. she must be on my mind more than i'm wanting to realize. i'm not sure if this whole "forget linda" thing is going to be very effective.

i am genuinly going to miss rosilyn this summer. we have been having so much fun these past couple months. we are the perfect roommate pair. wish she could come to boston with us...

i have been getting intense crushes lately. i'm not going to name the people, b/c i really don't know who all reads this journal. but, i can say that i need a girlfriend to focus some of this attention on.

i got an email from melinda (from the ferrick concert in atlanta) tonight. she said that she was about to leave to go to the catie curtis show. i suggested that she check catie out, but i couldn't go tonight b/c i have two finals tomorrow. i'm so jealous. it would have been fun to hang out with melinda again before i move up north. oh well. maybe when i get back next semester.

oh my. i am going to be a senior in like 24 hours. that is scary. i got my comp questions in the spo yesterday. they are hard as shit, but i have a long time to prepare for the exam.

well, dorothy agrees that i am probably addicted to journaling. so i'm going to end this now.

okay, the women's studies weight is gone. i think i got an A- or possibly an A on the final. go me.

i have two finals tomorrow that are not cumulative. i don't think i'm gonna study all that hard for them. i'll be fine. i'm going to the movie in about an hour. i'm gonna get a nice productive hour in of studying beforehand.

countdown to freedom: 21 hours

i kept waking up from sleep last night thinking about women's studies issues. urgh. i'm so ready to get this thing over with.

countdown till freedom: 31 hours.

i'm a little stressed about my women's studies final, but i don't think that i should be. i want so badly to impress berebitsky with my knowledge ;)

chris and i went mountain biking today. it was a great time. he went flying off the bike at one point. soon thereafter came the phrase, "mountain biking is definately a butch sport."--CLASSIC it started raining on us as we were finishing up the ride. i don't think that it bothered either of us too much.

i haven't seen ethan in a couple days. he says that he has a huge final tomorrow and another on saturday. i have a big one tomorrow and two smaller ones saturday, so i don't know if we'll see each other till we start packing up things to move...

the episcopal church has been calling my name lately. chris and i ate at bluewater tonight, and the lesbian at the school of theology was there. we talked briefly from our tables, which were close together. i think i'm going to email terry and see if he will hook me up w/her email address. he told me that she is going to be a great preist. she has a job at a church in west virginia. i think it would be great to get in touch w/her and throw around some ideas about the church and homosexuality. definately something i need to learn more about, as most of the oppression/hate comes from conservative-churchgoers.

if you're going to fight the battle, you have to know what you're up against...

i woke up crying from this dream:

my brother called me from home. in my dream, he was out of the school in alabama. i was not in my room when he called, so he left a message. i checked it and he said that dad had asked him about his sexual experiences. brian said that he was really honest with dad and dad just got pissed off. brian's voice was so grave. there was no inflection. he was in fear. he hung up the phone after a long pause without saying goodbye.

i was devastated. devastated and clueless as to how to analyze this dream.

the phone has been ringing off the hook this morning. i'm pretty sure it's been ros' fiance, justin. i just answered the phone in an "i'm fucking pissed" tone. i'm off to take care of some business around campus and then to find a place to study...