the end...just another beginning
it has been a long time and that is mostly because my computer has fizzled. okay, in actuality it is because i have been very irritable with the things that i need to journal about. so...i have done exactly what i shouldn't have and repressed those thoughts. well here they come...just a warning.
first ending/beginning: so frustrated with the relationship that i was in but wasn't in. i got tired of waiting for a phone call, not getting what i needed in the relationship, and dealing with the lack of committment. enough about that. it is over. we don't talk anymore, and i think it is best that way for a while. i have gotten myself to a place where i will be ready for anyone who comes along...
second ending/beginning: i got a big promotion at work. the job--a supervisor over half of the day program. i had two interviews...the second one was with three people in management. my boss said that after i left the interview the executive director said that he would be an idiot if he didn't hire me into the position. while i am very excited, i am also very wary of the promotion. i know that i am going to catch a lot of flack from my coworkers. several of them have worked for the company for 10 years, are much older than me, and did not get the job. here comes this little 23 year old who has been at the company for one year (exactly to the date...weird) and she steals the position. my qualifications for the job will be apparent soon after i enter into the positoin. i am nervous though...
just found out that hulon is moving on sunday. he is gone to knoxville for a few months. this saddens me to the point of tears. beyond that point really....
as one of my clients puts it "i'll live"
at this point i'm seeing the ends and beginnings intertwinned into one. one end passes the beginning which is itself an end. life is moving and i am simply trying to keep up.
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oh my god stacey... I love you dearly! I will probably miss you more than all of the other people that i am leaving here in this city. I have tried not to think about it to keep myself from breaking down. reading this blog almost took me to that place that I've been trying to avoid... Thank you for being there for me.. for putting up with my shit when no one else would.. for calling me out when i was full of it! For all the times at the park in the mud throwing the frisbee so many sundays.. For making sure i get to work after our er my drunken irrisponsible nights. Stacey, thank you for being the truest friend I never could have asked to be blessed with. You have been truer to me than any person I know. I think that you are the only person that has known me to the point that you do that has not turned thier back on me at some point. who has not betrayed or just plain took our friendship for granted. I LOVE YOU!!! Do you fucking understand that...I L O V E Y O U! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! There are 1001 other things that I want to go on to say but now you are standing there walking around in the kitchen talking to me and shit and its just kind of awkward.
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