i woke up crying from this dream:

my brother called me from home. in my dream, he was out of the school in alabama. i was not in my room when he called, so he left a message. i checked it and he said that dad had asked him about his sexual experiences. brian said that he was really honest with dad and dad just got pissed off. brian's voice was so grave. there was no inflection. he was in fear. he hung up the phone after a long pause without saying goodbye.

i was devastated. devastated and clueless as to how to analyze this dream.

the phone has been ringing off the hook this morning. i'm pretty sure it's been ros' fiance, justin. i just answered the phone in an "i'm fucking pissed" tone. i'm off to take care of some business around campus and then to find a place to study...