my life has taken an unexpected, yet welcomed, turn since my last post. i haven't written in a while because i wanted to write without taking away the joy from what's happening in my life. i'll try to recap the entire week....

monday was uneventful.

tuesday was a day of hell at school. the kids were wild, elena had a difficult day, and i worked 9 straight hours. i'm pretty sure that it was tuesday after work, when i went to old navy and got two pair(s?) of jeans and a t-shirt for fifty bucks. man i love old navy. fitz, one of my roomates, rented "a beautiful mind," so we all (fitz, blair, and i) watched it.

wednesday i didn't have to be at work until noon...so i enjoyed a nice nights sleep. got to elena's house and took her to a park in arlington, which was absolutely incredible. the view is amazing. i plan on making frequent trips because they have soccer goals WITH nets!! wednesday night was the most eventful part of my week. i will explain later in the entry, because it deserves more than a quick summary.

thursday was cool...i was completely out of it at work because my thoughts were isolated to the subject from the night before (see lower). i worked for eleven hours...during this time, i took elena out to the walden pond (yes, thoreau's) area to this place called "the food project." in addition to being completely out of my comfort zone (picking veggies from the field), i was hit on by a native african. later, i found out from amy (elena's mom) that this guy was a refuge from somalia that hiked a helluva long way to freedom from the civil wars in his homeland. i'm so interested in talking to him again about his escape...but it doesn't look like i'll get that chance. thursday night was uneventful.

yesterday was a great day at school. linda was the only teacher in the classroom and we talked a lot about our relationships and stuff. she said she'd be interested in playing soccer with me this weekend if i went out. amy was an hour and half late getting home from work, so i was stuck w/elena for 9 hours. days with an autistic child are so hard when you can't take a break. i got home, had a beer, and decided to go to sleep. climbed in the bed, and then blair got home screaming at me to wake up. so i woke up and after another beer, we ended up going to grab some food. the night was another one of those things where i'm thinking it's just a cool friend type deal and he's trying to formalize it to the date level. he insisted upon us sitting and eating on this bench. he was flirting like mad, and i was totally disinterested. i feel so bad sometimes b/c great guys deserve a chance, but i'm just no into them. so, anyways, i'm all like i can't finish this burrito and he says well don't cause you need room for the ice cream we are about to go get. ugh. what should i have done?! i was planning on coming out to him last night, but it would've been so cold to do that in the setting in which i found myself. so we go rent "the royal tenebaums" and grab some ice cream on the way back to the apartment. i sacked out on one couch and him on the other within the first thirty minutes of the movie.

i woke up this morning around 10.30 and jumped right into the shower. i called linda after i got out to see if she was still interested in kicking the ball around. she was around my area, so she picked me up and we headed out to the park in arlington (see above). i think we played around for a couple hours and talked about the thing from wednesday night (see below), relationships, and college stuff. i like linda a lot. she's down to earth, comfortable with herself in every way, and a great person to talk to about things going on in life. we'll probably be hanging out a lot for my remaining three weeks in the city. which brings me up to present...i just got outta the shower and am now finished brainstorming about my past week.

so here it is: the highlight of my week (wednesday night). after talking to kate on aol for around, oh i don't know an hour or two, i underwent an emotional explosion--my feelings for kate being the cause of such an event. at the time, she was explaining why she has been listening to "lullaby" type songs lately. however, her explanation was not the catalyst for my fluster, for as i was reading it i was not able to understand the words/phrases. my feelings for her had overcome me to the point of my having no control over my thoughts. i told her that i needed to go think for a while and that i would be back soon. i walked around the apartment for a few minutes trying to regain control of my thoughts. along with feeling dizzy, i could literally feel my skull bulging from the many thoughts/feelings within. i have never felt such an incredible thing...i came back, and kate immediately asked me what was going on. i knew she would, but i was still unsure of whether or not i should tell her. to make a long, somewhat embarassing, story short, hints were thrown around and finally after thinking she knew what it was i sent her my horoscope (which perfectly predicted this situation). the subject was narrowed a little by this, but kate was still worried that she might not be right. anyways...we became sure that we were on the same page and she told me that she had the feelings too. since wednesday night, we have decided to "let life lead us where it may" (as kate beautifully says). she's on her way up here for a week on august 5th. come what may :)

so i'm extremely happy with our relationship and its present ambiguity. i have been shocked by my comfort level of thoughts of kate in this "different" way. if kate and i do enter a relationship together, i know it will be one of sincerity, honesty, and beauty.