talked to linda tonight. i was on the phone with my friend from mississippi, alice. so i told linda that i couldn't talk. she said that she was just calling to see if i had any free time this week. i said yes, hesitantly. she asked when i would get off work tomorrow. 5 o'clock. i'll call you then.

so i'm going to see linda this week. i'm scared. she scares me. over thanksgiving last year, she said that i scare her. to which i asked how. she replied "b/c of the place you are in your life, b/c of my feelings for you."

now, she is scaring me for those same reasons. so many thoughts; so much irony.