i haven't posted in a long time and i must admit most of the reason lately has been because i'm dreading catching back up....so i'm just not going to...i'm gonna start w/what is on my mind now

i had dinner tonight with a friend from high school and was instantly hit with a wave of the southern realities. i cannot stand being home. i have to jump back into the closet head first and be cautious about making people uncomfortable. i feel myself falling into a depressed state just thinking about it all, so i'm gonna go jump in the pool/jacuzzi (one or the other). i don't need to think right now....