written entry from yesterday:

parent support was yesterday. these days wear me out more than any other day. i miss my brother. i wish that i could trust him. he is doing good, but i wonder if he's only "doing good" so that he can get out of three springs only to fuck it up again. i fear the day he gets so badly. i don't want to have to cut ties with him. i love him too much for that.

chris and i have engaged in GREAT conversations lately. i genuinly got sad when i realized that i only have one more semester here.